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Tom McAdam's avatar

I've read all your comments twice over, and all I can think is that I very rarely find that kind of peace in my mind. Solitude is my enemy, aloneness is a disease I have no cure for, yet even when surrounded by crowds of people solitude and aloneness is all I can feel. My therapist has helped me to try and find touchstones that can bring me out of my mind so I can try to find something that will bring me the kind of peace you all describe. They're all good things, things I care about and enjoy, and they bring me no more than a fleeting glimpse of hope. I tried very hard to come up with a scenario, a place, a song, a moving freight train, something that would be helpful to others who read this. I started and abandoned a dozen other comments, and I always came back to this. I'm sorry, this is not the sort of thing you were hoping to hear when you posed this question, Thao. But it's really all I have. Perhaps if I read all of your comments a few more times I might find something that might help me. Perhaps I'll never find anything at all. Again, I'm sorry, this will likely only bring people down or upset them, but it's all I've got. All these things are things I could never say out loud to another person, except my therapist who is a patient, kind and caring man. You kind, caring, generous people are the only other ones who know. Thanks for reading this, and I'm sorry.

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Andrew's avatar

There is a creek that borders the property where I work and if the weather is good I’ll take a break and sit down there listening to the frogs.

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